REFLECTION AND RESTORATION
A choice made to journey across Australia leaving behind 2 families, 1 my biological family and 1 my boarding family was a big change in life. A transition that required its own healing journey, not only for me but for the horses too.
Our wonderful and amazing herd had to acclimatize to their new environment and the weather, both of which took its tole on their health, so a healing process was in order. For all had suffered bar Turbo, who found life to be an endless journey of adventure and fun escaping into as many paddock as possible to socialize and make new friends. On Facebook, pictures would be posted of him being caught, a little pony popping up in their paddocks stealing every other horse feed. Lucky for him he was found to be cute and he got away with it. At our herds feed time he would be seen thundering down from which ever paddock he was in at the time to come for his feed with his herd with attitude, as he felt he was entitled to it. He was the entertainment of the agistment centre.
For myself, their was the blessing of being with family and the adventures had, side by side with the sadness of the loss of an old life, and the constant worry over the herd, and the question, had I made the right choice for us all. The doubt and worries flared up my anxiety which took its tole, however the support, my husband and family is what made the difference plus the love of my horses who nobly accepted my choices.
The journey proved to be a healing one, the horses reflected the need for my own healing, so I took up the challenge, reflected within, and processed through some great inner work. During this time I enrolled in the study of philosophy to face anxiety head on, with the question of, was I good enough, An essay on the 'pursuit of truth' restored my self belief and my confidence in the journey I undertook, so life experience is a wonderful healer.
Therefore, I restored and old pattern of I am not good enough to I am not good enough yet. The yet added the ultimate forward moving meaning of, I am not good enough yet because with study and time I will become good enough, I can become great, I can become excellent. The choice to pursue my truth is mine.
With that realization and insight, my horses are on the mend and so am I
Maryke and the herd
'The Beauty in truth is mine to see'
There are transitions in life where a little helping hand is what may be needed to assist you to jump over the hurdle in front of you. It is just that, a transition, where new learning is being harnessed for that next step, trot, canter and gallop while you are setting your life up to allow something new to enter. It is in this transition that you may feel overwhelmed and not quite know which way to go; this is where Equi-Life Coaching can become a part of your process as you progress on your life path with purpose.
Standing at the barrier you may feel rather anxious or may be even be excited to get ready, set and go, yet not sure of what to do or how you feel about it all. It may even feel like a race of emotions that need to be ploughed through as you paw at the ground restlessly awaiting your new beginnings, sometimes with apprehension and fear. It is our role to hold a space for you where you are able to find your way through the turmoil and discover the path life is taking you.
A new trail is emerging and wanting you to engage in the use of your determination to find your way over this hurdle to gain the confidence and take that risk. Challenge yourself, go over the jump, then land with feelings of joy and elation at having overcome the obstacle that kept you feeling stuck. Now having collected your determination you are ready to move forward blazing your new trail and with mindfulness grow in strength and wisdom enjoying and treasuring each moment of your journey.
Enjoy the ride
A New Start
The herd and I have travelled and settled in Luddendham, NSW. This change has not been without its own personal challenges, trials and tribulations. The sadness and the grieving felt; over the loss of leaving behind family, friends and what I considered our dream home and everything familiar.
At times these emotions overshadowed the beauty and joy of this new phase in life. Acceptance, of the choices made, was not the easiest journey for someone who beats herself up constantly when unforeseen circumstances arose.
Yet since this time we have passed through this phase in life the Equi-healing way and have grown, in strength, wisdom and confidence, knowing all will be just fine.
In true Equi-Healing style, it was felt, moved through and accepted as part of life's progressive healing journey, and with that, the joy emerged. Joy played the victory dance of gratitude, as a new life of celebrations are discovered with new experiences, amazing people, beautiful places, and lots of new trails. Thus the mystery and serendipity of life continues as we continue to blaze these new trails in the adventure of life.
Life's a journey, Enjoy the ride
A moment of beauty where life stands still and asks nothing of us and we are in awe of our experience. Time stood still as we lived in the quiet of this moment, never to be repeated, without expectation and allowing all to flow, doing nothing and just being. The winds had stopped and the rain was nowhere to be seen, just stillness, peace, quiet, and allowing the moment of presence. The undulating ground where weeks before the sands had been washed away with a river of rain flowing fast and furious like no other time before, now had its own beauty and earthed our moment in time. Our herd member Grace, so unique and so special creating the experience where no words were spoken, where you let go of your mind, without expectation. to become one with your time shared, a moment of truth where love is exchanged without expectation to become unconditional beautiful love.