REFLECTION AND RESTORATION
A choice made to journey across Australia leaving behind 2 families, 1 my biological family and 1 my boarding family was a big change in life. A transition that required its own healing journey, not only for me but for the horses too.
Our wonderful and amazing herd had to acclimatize to their new environment and the weather, both of which took its tole on their health, so a healing process was in order. For all had suffered bar Turbo, who found life to be an endless journey of adventure and fun escaping into as many paddock as possible to socialize and make new friends. On Facebook, pictures would be posted of him being caught, a little pony popping up in their paddocks stealing every other horse feed. Lucky for him he was found to be cute and he got away with it. At our herds feed time he would be seen thundering down from which ever paddock he was in at the time to come for his feed with his herd with attitude, as he felt he was entitled to it. He was the entertainment of the agistment centre.
For myself, their was the blessing of being with family and the adventures had, side by side with the sadness of the loss of an old life, and the constant worry over the herd, and the question, had I made the right choice for us all. The doubt and worries flared up my anxiety which took its tole, however the support, my husband and family is what made the difference plus the love of my horses who nobly accepted my choices.
The journey proved to be a healing one, the horses reflected the need for my own healing, so I took up the challenge, reflected within, and processed through some great inner work. During this time I enrolled in the study of philosophy to face anxiety head on, with the question of, was I good enough, An essay on the 'pursuit of truth' restored my self belief and my confidence in the journey I undertook, so life experience is a wonderful healer.
Therefore, I restored and old pattern of I am not good enough to I am not good enough yet. The yet added the ultimate forward moving meaning of, I am not good enough yet because with study and time I will become good enough, I can become great, I can become excellent. The choice to pursue my truth is mine.
With that realization and insight, my horses are on the mend and so am I
Maryke and the herd
'The Beauty in truth is mine to see'